Of disbelief and helplessness??

I wanted to refrain from writing and talking about this. The last 5 days have been absolute madness with what happened in Mumbai, we all know it and its all we have been talking about. Everyone is still reeling with shock, anger and the worst of all helplessness. Usually, we see people blaming each other, other groups and sects, and even the government. But this time, everyone seems to be taking the blame. The government says that they have failed, and so are we. Now, isn't that the most confusing bit? If the citizens ourselves take the blame of not being responsible enough, what are we going to do to make things better, in effect, damage control? Isn't that the worst feeling? Of helplessness? What are we going to do? And what is going to happen? Most of us, and by us I mean my peers and the people I interact with. Did we even vote the last time? I know a lot of us who dint. Do we have the right to blame the government and say that they are not taking care of us and we need to live in a safe India? What about those of us who are not living in India anymore? I wake up this morning and see my mailbox flooded with email and my facebook home page full of events on Candle lights and walks, and gatherings and marches. I am not against such gestures, nor am I against people or groups who organize such events. But what good is that going to do? Doesn't that just reinforce our position of helplessness and fear? Light some candles, walk a 100 meters and then what? Go back home and watch the news, cry out in disbelief and voice a hundred opinions as to what the government should do? I cannot deny that I am scared. I am scared for my family, my loved ones back home and for myself as well. What can I, or even we do today? Honestly, I do not know. And neither do you. So please, do not pretend to.

I'm back!

It's been a while since I blogged. Almost a month in fact. I don't really know why I dint feel like posting anything. Not that nothing has happened, or I dint find anything blog worthy. In fact my life seems to have changed drastically since my last post. A lot of things have happened and I'd like to think I've grown past certain things in my life and am looking at myself, people around me and the world with a different perspective. A more mature, positive way of thinking I'd like to believe. A lot of things to let go, a lot to embrace and look forward to in the future.

I have a presentation in an hour for the final of one of my courses.Wish me luck! More later..

Some more bread?? aargh!

I'm in school and I'm hungry. I go to the food court at the student union here and what are my choices? Pizza, Stuffed Pizza, Stromboli(yumm), sandwich, burgers, wraps, the inevitable taco bell, panda express, subway and some more. Notice one common factor among them all? BREAD. Filled with carbs and nothing more. And then we have cheese and the fried stuff in them. Now how does anyone expect to lose weight and stay in shape? I'm sick of all the bread around me. It's not just at school but everywhere we go, its all about bread. I was never big on it back home, and now I'm forced to eat it. When I go home, I'm not going to even LOOK at bread. That's decided. I'm sick of it. This happens ALL the time. Even now. I'm feeling guilty as hell. I was so hungry after lab I had a slice of pizza and fries. And now I feel terrible for feeding my body all this junk.This was in the afternoon. Sufficient time has passed for me to feel hungry again and what were my choices? Coffee, pastry, danish and eclair. I settled for the eclair and now guilt strikes again. I'm going to have roti and dal when I get home. Or just some dal. sigh. And now get back to my paper on GE's business strategy on outsourcing.

Tagged again

The best thing about this semester is that I have Fridays off.Which explains my extreme laziness this morning..err,afternoon.

I started writing this post on Friday, before I got distracted, and now I'm attempting to finish it up! School and work are going on as usual, right into the middle of the semester with a lot of submissions, profs making us turn in papers left,right and center.Sigh. This should be titled 'Travails of grad student life'.

So Aishu sent me an email tag, and instead of replying to her, I decided to post it! How interesting. Now you get to know a little bit more about me, which I'm SURE you are dying to know..here goes..

What time did you get up this morning?
8 30 AM. That was the time I dragged my a$$ out of the bed. I actually woke up at much earlier thanks to my wonderful roomies who's alarms ring every 5 min from 7 30!! (its alright. I still lou you guys! :D)

Diamonds or pearls?
Diamonds. Is that even a question??

What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Rock on. Apart from the fact that Farhan Akhtar was looking HOT beyond belief, the movie was ok-ok. A bit cliched, but made well nevertheless. I usually don't like guys/men with long hair but this time I had to make an exception. Farhan in that 'rocker' type image, bandana and shades.. oooh!

What is your favorite TV show?
I'm not much of a TV person. But if I do watch, I like watching comedy..and sex and city.

What do you usually have for breakfast?
IF I have breakfast its usually bagel and cream cheese, or cereal. Coffee is a must though.

What is your middle name?
I don't have one.


What food do you dislike?
Upma. Otherwise I'm not too fussy.

What kind of car do you drive?
Being the poor grad student that I am, I rely on the school shuttle.

Favorite sandwich?
Does an Eggel count? Thats like my FAV EVER!

What characteristic do you despise?
When someone tries to be something they are not.

Favorite item of clothing?
I love skirts and dresses.Especially summery ones.

If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
Long list. Italy, South Africa, Egypt, Turkey

What color is your bathroom?
Umm, White and cream?

Favorite brand name of clothing?
I like Guess!

Where would you retire to?
Some warm place for sure. I despise winters.


What was your most memorable birthday?
My 21st.As cliched as it sounds, its true!

Favorite sport to watch?
Cricket? I hardly watch sports.

Farthest place you are sending this?
Someone in Zimbabwe could be reading this for all I know.

Favorite saying?
Blah. Fits almost anywhere.

When is your birthday?
March 4

Are you a morning person or a night person?
I'm an Owl


What is your shoe size?
7 1/2

Pets?
No. But I'd love to have a dog one day.


Any new and exciting news you’d like to share with us?
I wish there was!


What did you want to be when you were little?
A teacher.

What are you wearing today?
Formal pants, shirt and closed shoes.Career fair. Need I say more?

What is your favorite candy?
Chocolat!


What is your favorite flower?
I don't know what they're called, but those small yellow ones you get in bunches.

What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to?
Diwali I guess.Been like forever since I have worn a saree. Very very bored of jeans I must say.

What church do you attend?
I don't go to church.

What are you listening to right now?
'Yeh Tumhari Meri Baatein' - Rock on. I'm addicted to this song!

What was the last thing you ate?
Roti and aloo

Do you wish on stars?
Yes. *blush*

If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Pink

How is the weather right now?
End of fall and winter is on the way. :-(

Last person you spoke to on the phone?
Nishita I think. No one *interesting* if thats what your implying.

Do you like the person who sent this to you?
Yes. *louu* :D

Favorite soft drink?
Fanta

Favorite restaurant?
I'd give anything to go to The Kabab Factory now.

Hair color?
Black with streaks of Fuschia

Favorite day of the year?
Any day I get to sleep in late

What was your favorite toy as a child?
My barbie

Summer or winter?
I used to hate summers. But it was only after I got here I realized how *terrible* winters are. I LOVE summers now. The weather, summer clothes and shoes.. already waiting for summer 09

Hugs or Kisses?
Both!

Chocolate or Vanilla?
CHOCOLATE

When was the last time you cried?
A month back I think

What is under your bed?
Nothing. Its clean.

What did you do last night?
Um. Slept.

Favorite smell?
Sweet pea spray by Bath and Body works

What are you afraid of?
Scorpions

Plain, buttered, or salted Popcorn?
Salted

How many keys on your key ring?
One big and two small ones

How many years at your current job?
Since I work at school, its been half a semester I guess.

Favorite day of the week?
Thursday nights.

How many cities have you lived in?
If College Park can be counted as a city, then 3. If not its 2.

Do you make friends easily?
Sometimes.

How many people will you be sending this to?
I am not tagging anyone, but whoever reads this, feel free to do this tag and post it!

Moving

I hate moving. All that packing and shifting things. Unpacking and setting up the house all over again. Opening boxes and bags and more boxes and more bags. Ugh.For the world of me, I fail to understand how I managed to accumulate/gather so much stuff. My roommates and I needed 2 trucks to carry all our stuff.In two trips. Needless to say, I'm exhausted. I'm so tired I'm unable to sleep. I need some help to get through this week.I have a bunch of assignments to submit.God,give me some strength.

PHYS 103?

Ok. So I'm going to be teaching Physics to the undergrads from now on. Wish me luck peepal! :D

Back to school

Technically the day before yesterday was the first day of the fall semester and we're back at school. After a summer(??) of 40 hours of work a week on campus, I was looking forward to half the work and classes. The fact that I dint have to take the 7 15 bus in the morning itself was enough to make me smile. So I woke up this morning late and happy, but then I dint have to go to school till the afternoon. I was actually bored. I dint like the nothingness of the morning and was feeling so bleurgh. Why? Why did I miss going to school in the morning when every morning was spent complaining, cursing and whining? Not just me, but by my room mates as well. It was something like how I used to wait and wait for the summer holidays and then get bored after a few days. There is something about work that makes you miss it when you have none!

Now its back to the grind of assignments,reading and writing. I have all these strategic management type courses this time and it looks like I have a lot of work cut out for me. Reading all these cases and stuff. Exciting yes, tough yes. My mind hasn't yet started adapting to the management way of thinking.. but I'm getting there.. I know I am! (yes, positive thinking works).

The parental unit seems to be missing their darling daughter a lot these days. Calls everyday and stuff. Wonder why! :-) Yes parents.. me is missing you too. And the brother as well. Much loouve and big kissies from me! <3